Well I have been dealing with well I guess "labels" lately. For example today my friend told me he didn't believe me when I said I have never done drugs. (He is also a very judgmental person to begin with). But we were talking and drugs came up and He said something like he never wanted to do them and I said I have never done them. He then look at me and said "Well I kinda don't believe that," I obviously asked why. His answer was, "I don't know you just seem like the type that would," and well I guess I can understand why he says that because I do know a lot about them and I have may friends that do, do them. But I have never and it doesn't help I am kinda a metal face.
Honestly though I didn't like that he labels me that. And I am not to sure if that even is a label but it is for less of a better word.
Well today when I was waiting for the bus with my friend Cole,
I asked "what time is it?" Because he always has his phone.
He answered with " I don't know get it out of my pocket,"
I kinda looked at him funny then looked at where is was. In his front pocket pushed towards in grown. I obviously answered. "No, you get it,"
He looked at me funny. "No my hands are cold, you get it,"
I looked at him disappointed. "No, it's in a awkward spot."
"No it's not just get it."
"Yes it is,"
He then kinda gave me a stupid look then managed to clue in. But his face was so funny. "Oh my god I get it know," Then he began to laugh at me. "I'm sorry I forgot about that,"
Yeah obviously that is a good answer. Also most of the time I wouldn't care but he just well had really deep pockets and I didn't want anything bad to happen. But I personally think that is was just a moment I had to share. Plus it was just so random because he is normally I don't know anyone near me and don't sit that close. Kind of person. So it was just weird of him. But anyways I know kinda stupid but whatever get over it.
Wellvas you may see by the title I am tried of being alone. I have come to hate it. I guess I don't have anyone to blam but myself but it sucks. I don't know the right people to like and the ones I do only want to be friends. I can't stand it. It doesn't help this is around the time last year I broke up with my last boyfriend but it is sad I can't get another. I have no idea even how to get a guy intrested. I am honestly hopeless in that sense. I really envy the people who don't even have to try and they can get a boy friend. I only wish I could do that. It would be amazing if I could but sadly I can't. So unfortunelly I am propobly going to be pittying myself for the next couple months and I will be real pethtic. Also I am typing on my iPod so sorry for the missaks
Well as you may see I love it right know. I normally hate it but it has been so cold lately I am just running to it with arms wide open. So I got these knit tights and they are wonderful. they are so warm and it allows me to wear my skirts and shorts now :) So I am a very happy camper.
Also User's new song Without you David Guetta Ft. Usher I can't get enough of it. I have talked it over with my friends and we think it is all because well it is Usher. As much as I may not like most pop songs almost anything he does I some how manage to fall in love with so. I guess that tells you a lot about me but do you really care no. So farewell for right know my darlings.
Well honestly life kinda sucks sometimes....It is awesome most of the times but this weekend I got some shitty news...To start my two best friends are both military kids so they were getting there posting's last week. I was so focussed on one because she thought he was moving I forgot about the other. So my friend who thought she was moving is staying and guess the F*** what my other best friend is moving to Africa!!
I couldn't stop crying. Because well I knew her parents wanted to get a embassy but they thought it would be until another couple years. But no this summer she is moving to africa... and I know people are saying you two will still facebook and skye but it isn't the same she is honestly the only person that I really love and I don't kine that in a gay way but I love her like my sister. She has been there for me to listen to all my shit and help me though so much. She has done more and beyond for me without knowing it. So I cried lie never before when I found out. And yes I am crying right know. I will miss her so much.
So at first I was thinking of all the ways to keep her here. Then I though I can't. It is just such a great opportunity I can't be the person telling her not to take it. Even if it is going to be hard. I can't be that person. So I think she should go for it. The other hard thing is that they want to bring me from what she has told me.
They are offering me a chance to go with them. Which I want to take but the thing is my parents have said no right away and I don't even now if it would work. So I am losing my best friend.
Which sucks because I wanted to go away for school in grade 12 and the I would have a grade 13. But the thing is she is coming back when I would be in grade 13 and probably out of the country. But if I do go away for the schooling we would be closer and maybe be able to see each other on holidays...So I don't know that would only happen if I got in and could pay which I don't know if I could...So this year I have to spend as much time with her as I can and that sucks considering we don't go to the same school... such is life... it sucks.